And I just can't contain, This feeling that remains

Recently I have had the opportunity to read a novella for my English class. We had many different choices to choose from but I finally picked "Death in Venice" by a German author; Thomas Mann. It was revealed to the world in 1912 and by 1925 was translated to English. Now normally I would never pick up a book like this, not because it isn't good but because I have never, ever read a classic and perhaps considered them "boring." Now yes, I am very ashamed of the fact I have never read a book by a world-renowned author or thought that these books would not be something I particularity like. But honestly; how wrong was I! So entirely, completely, wholly and solely wrong! First of all, let me tell you what the book is about. It is basically a story of two extremes which are containment versus passion. In this story, a German writer who lives for art but never feels it, visits Venice and becomes a different man. He is changed as his curbed passion is unleashed when he encounters a young boy and falls in love with him. Now returning to the "I wouldn't normally read it" as some parts of the novel are odd as it contains a pedophile idea but gratefully not any acting upon those ideas. I have never read a book which has this type of idea as it particularity scares me. But what was fascinating about this book was not only how well it was written but also, how intriguing the concept was. The exploration of the two extremes were done particularity well and really made you wonder what the character was thinking. In the end, I was grateful that I had picked this book as I found it a very interesting experience and unearthed my fascination/obsession with literature. What are your favorite books and why? I would love to know!

good bye babe, see you again someday

Today was the last day of high school. It feels so surreal to be done in such a short period of time it seems. It has been three years and yet, I feel as if a moment simply flew by. On one hand I am entirely happy that it is done as new journeys await but at the same time I don't want to lose my youth, my innocence. I don't want to gain responsibility which I feel I am entirely unprepared for. You have to start depending on no one but yourself but I feel as if all my life I have depended on everyone around me.I feel as if I break down when no one is there to help me. I guess I am not entirely shocked at the fact change will soon come my way but I am just amazed at the speed of time. One day we are youngsters running around with our friends and then we grow up to be adults with no friends whatsoever... Haha... Seriously, its not funny. I have no friends. But this is not the point of the blog post. I just want to urge everyone to go out and be crazy, be funny, be studious, just be you while you have the time! I don't have the guts to be any of that, for now i hope at least, but just think about how fast the speed of time is. Do something now so you won't regret it later. People are people. People are supposed to live and as we all have a different definition of what a "good life" is, why are we so scared? Are we scared of judgment or of our selves? Are we scared of the barriers or our capability? Just by being you, you are not only making yourself much happier but also, you will meet people who have similar interests. People who you enjoy being around with. Just do it. Anything and everything. Six little but most powerful words; Do. It. Be. It. Why Not?