what is love but the strangest of feelings?

I feel so alone and misunderstood by nobody but myself. I feel as though I know nothing about who I am. I often don't even know what I feel about certain things. I sometimes find myself asking over and over again. Questioning to find the answer but never succeeding. I am lost and can never make up my mind. Who am I? I sometimes feel that I am up to nobody's standards; mine or anybody elses. I wonder who I should be. What seems appealing to others. And only sometimes do I feel whole and want to break out but everytime I try to speak -I feel ashamed, not confident, unimportant, just minute- and my voice gets lost. And once again, I wonder.